Stopped all medications all at once.

They had you well drugged!
At 20 you should have the choice to take drugs or not! But I know what a PITA parents can be ....
I know a Dr. would never suggest going from such a drugged state to nothing overnight.
I am far from a chemist or a Dr.
I know the med I take for sleep is the one I value.

Yeah I took my first meds at age 11. 11-13 was zoloft, prozac, risperdal, wellbutrin, and im missing 1 or 2. 14 was the dreaded lithium, I was on 1200 mgs at one point, shortly after lithium... fuck it heres the list. The scary thing is im missing 4-5.
1. Abilify
2. Anafranil
3. Ativan/Lorazepam
4. Depakote
5. Lamictal/Lamotrigine
6. Lithium/Lithobid
7. Prozac
8. Risperdal
9. Wellbutrin
10. Xanax
11. Zoloft
12. Zyprexa

Out of this list the ones I hate the most are Lamictal, Lithium, and the one I hate the most the most!!!! WITH A PASSION!!!! Is zyprexa! gaining 20 pounds in less than 2 months was the worst side effect! I now have permanent stretch marks which make me cry myself to sleep some nights!

Oh and may I add now I hate my mother more than I hate anyone in the world! SHE FUCKING FORCE FED ME THE MEDS!!!!!! Some rough nights I would fall asleep early around 10ish and if I had forgotten to take my meds my mother would wake me up and I'm half asleep and brain dead so I just take them!!! Please someone anyone help!!!! I just wish I was never born and never had this shitty life. Everyone who knows me has always known me as the crazy as fuck friend, and now that I'm completely unmedicated I give a new name to crazy!

hey new account with a name like medssuck a lot of people might take the name the wrong way

Hey other people at SG!
We need POSITIVE INPUT FROM POSITIVE people!!!

medssuck (I like the name here) - have you told your mom you do not want to take drugs?
Was there a plan by the Dr's to reduce your meds?

I was put on Dilantin when I was 14 - I'd still be on that crap if my mom had her way!
A psych and my current MD wanted me on Lithium - I chose not to proceed with it
(note to other SG members - I did not say their suggestion was without merit).

Ok no Dr. knows. It was very dangerous I know and honestly I don't care. I wouldn't have cared if it had killed me! In fact I wish somehow it had. one week ago I wake up in the hospital from nearly drinking myself to death and getting hypothermia. The two things I'm most mad about that night was
1. I wish I had died
2. The Dr.s at the hospital ripped my favorite Doors shirt (the band)

Oh and an answer to your question about does my mom know. She knows, I rubbed it in her fucking stupid face. I told her with a smile on my face that I flushed them all down the toilet. It's scary how much I hate her. Spring break is coming up and I do NOT want to go home. About 2 weeks ago my mother and father visited me and it was so tough to be around my parents, my mother especially! It got so bad I had to make her leave the room, because I couldn't even look at her! Every time I think about her I get sick to my stomach and upset and flustered! She ruined my life! Plain and simple! When I turned 19 I begged and pleaded her please please mother let me stop just the zyprexa! It took another 6 months + to get me off the evil drug!!!!!! Talking about all this now makes me fucking enraged!!!!!!