You think Im all laughs
You think Im all smiles
You think Im happy

But you never even considered
That behind these laughs is a nightmare
Underneath that smile is so much pain
Threatening that happiness is pure anguish

Behind these walls
Im tortured
locked behind these closed doors Ive never seen the sun

Youll never understamd why I cry
Youll never understand how bad I want to die
You cant understand me at all so why do you try

You say im pretty
You say im smart
You say im funny
You say you love my good heart
But thats all a lie

My eyes wont let me see that
I accept that now
I wish I could love myself
But instead I wear my confidence as a suite

With out it im vunerable
To emitons ready to erupt
My faulse sence of happiness is only skin deep
My interal mind would never keep

Steal my pain
I beg of you
I want to live again
In a body that is full not hallow
Make whole again
Please my tears scream my sorrow

I pray to a god I dont believe in
I dont believe in anything
But death
For nothing else can be certain